After Exposure.

It has no effect on me. I'm sorry to say this. Really.
I don't know how to say this...
What I'm feeling right now. It's beyond what I should be feeling during the exposure.
I've not opened up my view to the purpose of going to the exposure.

I have no feeling.
I could not see their troubles.
How can I? When I myself am struggling to handle my own?
I am incapable already. What more can I see?
I have no skills. Nor talents.
I can say they lead a better life than me.
In comparison, I am nothing. They are at least something.

-JaSoN-
*I wake up one day... and say to myself... that I will change the fact that I am who I am... yet I never change... and because of that, I'm still nothing to others...*

A daily thing to do.

That is to blog. I'm starting to get the hang of it... I guess?

Well, my family and I went to watch 2012. The movie seemed really melancholic in a sense that, one day, we may not even be able to fight for our lives. It is truly a great inspirational movie in a positive point of view that no matter how harsh it is, we need to continue moving along in our lives such that we accomplish what we want, in this case, life. A simple mistake could bring us all down at once. It's like riding an unicycle on a rope between two skyscrapers. The magnitude of wind above can just push us easily off the rope and we'll land terribly on the floor face down.

However, what seems to be of value is this :

Humanity will fall apart when each and every one of us chooses not to fight for each other's lives.

Going for exposure tomorrow. It'll be dead boring. That's all I can say about it. Estimated time to waste on the program would be 24-30hrs.

Are you there?

Can you hear me?

I'm speaking to you with my heart.

In silence. Without words or actions.

I wonder...

If you can hear me...

Just listen closely.

I have a tale.

It's about my life.

I'm saying... I'm not a lover.

I'm admitting... I'm not a caring person.

I ain't got what it takes to be human.

Because I never cared for others.

Or loved anyone.

Nor shared feelings with anyone.

Maybe I'm destined to work alone.

But I ain't wanting this to happen.

Not even when it's to be so.

Not even when you say so.

Because...

I know no one can work alone.

Everybody needs someone.

I need someone.

I'm part of everybody.

But I don't belong in it.

Scary thought isn't it?

It gives me great curiousity.

To experience life.

In another's shoes.

For I want to know.

How it feels like.

To be loved.

Cared for.

And share moments together...

-Memories-
|SiEgHaRt|
*In order to receive something, one must be the first to give*
*I wanna give. Not for the sake of receiving*
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*But How?*

Rejection.

Alright.

Just to say that I'm lacking my narrative skills so this won't be a long post. Well, good luck to me.

Rejection
Sometimes in our daily lives, we are prone to the feelings of rejection.
What is rejection?
It is a feeling of loneliness or feeling unwanted by an individual, a party or a society.
Causes of it?
What causes rejection towards an individual depends on the demeanor of the individual. This includes speech, action and characteristics.

And time to be straightforward.

Am I Rejected by the World?

Maybe I am.

But I...

Perhaps...

I want...

To feel acceptance.

Just Once...

So to say,
That a person reveals what he wants to be known as to others.
Is this true? Does this fact hold truth for my case?
Did I...
Show myself as a rejection
To everyone?
Or was it my speech? Perhaps action? Or maybe my characteristics?
Yeah, arrogance and cowardice towards lost.
I guess...
But haven't I lost enough to at least gain something in return?
Hmm... Now I'm beginning to sound desperate.
How about jealousy?
I envy those born with natural social abilities.
I, on the other hand, am born with an aura of dislike.
I'm lost... I don't know what else to do...

-JaSoN-

Dead Blog >> Living Blog.

I'm Back! =]

And I'm going to share words here.
Sharing words is equivalent to sharing my feelings.

So! Let's Rock! XD
*Gets Nevan out*


Number 1 on Da List!

It's Holiday! The last one... Starting to feel the need to spend this holiday wisely.
And that means, NO CAMPING NO CONVENTIONS. I HATE THAT ******* CONVENTION RIGHT NOW!
Yea!! You know what? I was inspired by many to go there. But now because of someone, Lol~ I'm SPEECHLESS to say a word at all nor to agree going there although I really want to go.
God Bless, Will Someone Get Him, The "RESPONSIBLE" Head Of Delegaga Off? I Freaking Hate And Despise Those Idiots Who Get Things For Granted. *Chills~*
P.S. I will never entertain last minute invites.

No tuitions anymore! I guess...? Well, timetable's kinda messed up. But who cares? I don't. Cuz I know the way to the tuition center. Ain't a fool to get lost anywhr in CL.

DotA ----- I guess I'm getting worse at it? Maybe it's time to pack up and leave the community. It does make me envious of those who improved while I seemingly play at a mediocre rate or constant degrading rate? This is starting to make me feel unsafe. That I'm incapable of doing things anymore. Not only did I degraded in DotA, my studies, my punctuality, my everything. Suicide may be the best choice right now. But I need to move on. One day, I'll find my strong point and I'll beat them. I won't lose my self-value so easily anymore!

Penang/Pinang ----- Will be going there for a vacation on 4th, 5th and 6th. Hope it will be an enjoyable trip. =]

To Friends ----> It's Holiday! Can WE go SoMeWhErE?!!?!??! Plz Plz Plz!!! T_T


"Progression In Life, The Most Complex Form Of It Is Moving On"

Tata. Byebye. Be Back Soon.
-JaSoN-