Not going to play like a kid anymore...
Not going to act like a playful child...
Not going to seek attention...
Not going to be after needs and wants...
Because it's far too foolish... It's not going to do any good...
It'll only make people unpleased...
It'll only make people breed hatred...
It'll only cause dissatisfaction...
And in the end, I become one of the many objects to be targeted by all who hate...
I wished... That i never had certain memories...
But they linger on... Permanently... In my temple...
And when time gets down, I get flashbacks of the same painful experience...
When time gets rough, I felt harshness I experienced years before...
When there is pain, I felt it... It's the same feeling of pain... The worst yet inflicted on me...
And all of these... It's scary... And when people talk about death... Especially their own...
I couldn't bring myself to accept any of their statement...
I want them to continue being with me because I know that without them, I wouldn't have gotten this far.
Yet sometimes... Not to say that they let me down... But... I've been hurt several times by them... In rough words, people would call them backstabbers... But this word has not come across my mind... No matter how severe was my hurt... I stepped down and let them have what they want... I'm willing... As long as there is a need...
So... Today... I learned something...
That is to be more mature-minded... Or at least to act like one...
And not play a fool anymore... Not be a kid who desires attention anymore...
But it's one of the egos that I own but hate just as much as I have the rights to own it...
It's the coldest type of personality... The most harsh and reclusive spirit and mind...
I really hope that... This does not happen... It'll be deja vu all over again...
Things like what I can do to my friend, the one I had an argument with this year... Will repeat itself... To others...
-LeoN-HarT-
Atika...
If those people cannot shut their mouths,
Very sorry to say,
But it's their nature...
Let them be...
When they grow up,
They'll be in the slums...
Because of their "heretic" attitudes...
And you... You'll be above them...
You'll be better than them...
Because You Care...
Your words are not without mannerism...
Not without ethic and professionalism...
So much more better than theirs...
Which stink like rotten duck eggs...
Don't CARE about those "PEOPLE"
-SiEg-Xth-
"If I Were To Express What I Hold So Dear"
"If I Were To Be Given Another Life"
"It's Not Gonna Happen Though"
"Cuz I Noe"
"Humans Do Not Know Their Own Rights"
-JaSoN-
